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wooooooooooooooow. its been forever and a day since i've ranted and raved and contradicted myself on this shindig. what the hell have i been up to this past year.. not like i can remember.. i guess that was a rhetorical question. well since that last entry i recall i decided to denounce alcohol.. hahhahahahahahhahahahaha as if. i knew that wouldn't stand. as a matter of fact since i turned 21 i have been a regular at the bar. i do not drink like i used to though. i have had 1 more mess up that will never happen again. the last time i was drunker than ive ever been was my birthday cause everyone was bying me drinks.. but i wasnt even close to being in the state i was used to. shit i can hang out at a bar and not even drink. i go to hang out. but my friend tina has a gift.. lol i have fallen in love with her bloody marys. mmmmmMMMmmmm good. and i hated vodka ever since it kicked my ass when i was 18. i couldn't even drink orange juice for months with out throwing up a little in my mouth. -ew-
ok what else.. i'm on a roll.. school.. oh school.. well. i actually completed a course. an online class. i'm focusing on child development. i really want to work with children. i want to be a kindergarten teacher. teaching them their colors and shapes and sounds and all that jazz. i've been a nanny for over a year now and i just love it. so i have been contemplating on taking classes for business in hopes to open up my own "alternative" day-care. that would be so rad. it felt nice actually finishing a course and not dropping out in the middle of it. but i must confess i almost did.. again. but no. i held in there. now i just need to pay my fees. -eek-
lemme see.. du du du.. sexy shoes? oh yes. those. i have yet to have a chance to even wear them somewhere. i don't tend to get all fancied up when i go to the dive bars. i like to be comfortable. i'm still me.. whatever that may be. i really don't have a certain style. punk/rockabilly/i don't know. i mean i listen to everything from wu-tang clan to pasty cline. ahh anyways.. i do dress more "girly" i suppose.. as much as a tough-girl exterior i pose on others i'm still very much a lady. and my boyfriend seems to dig my stylo.
ooooOOOOOOooo the boyfriend.. ahh.. where do i begin.. oh yeah.. the beginning.. well we've been together for 5 months. he practically lives with me in my garage house lol. i love him to death even when he's annoying me with is annoyingness. lol. he's my buddha. and because of him i have extended my friends. he was an avid visitor of the anarchy library for years and years. i started going when it was at the end of its legacy. [RIP A.L.] two bartenders who used to work there now work at another bar thats fairly new and closer to shaun and i. i've become really close with them and love them dearly. so if you ever visit the JC TAVERN in downey.. that's my 2nd home. where everybody knows your name.. seriously its like CHEERS. lol.
i've been to a few shows. DBS. conflict. calabrese. nekromantix. horror pops. tsol. danzig. more DBS. aggrolites. three bad jacks. the hootenanny. ahh and i can't remember the others.. and i cant wait til august 4th cause i get to see DBS yet again! best fucking show ever. i love those fuckers. dan is my homie! lol -death for life-
i know no one reads my shit and i don't give a fuck really. i felt like typing away for a bit. hell.. i don't even know who my "friends" are on this dingy anyways. so there ya go.. or rather there i go. i'm off this bitch. -ciao-
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| get set. get ready. grow up. |
[29 Jul 2006|07:43pm] |
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it's strange seeing yourself grow up..
i'm 21 and i'm finally getting my shit together..
i'm finally getting out of the adolescent mentality i once had toward society towards people towards life..
i know what it takes to get anywhere in life in this [fucked up] society and how to play the game to get what i want out of it..
i'm going back to school in the fall and i can't wait. i finally have a goal and i'm very enthusiastic about reaching it. going to ELAC on and off for nearly three years got me nowhere and now i am at the starting line once more but this time with focus and will and determination..
in the recent events that involved a boy and a girl.. i found myself reacting in a more mature manner rather than acting like a drama-queen or being mischievous as i used to behave..
go me!
even down to buying my first pair of sexy shoes showed that even my wardrobe is in a new light..
i'm still me in every context that i can describe but a more grown up version..
i still go to punk shows and listen to my music. that will never change..
but with my drinking and what i now associate drinking with has changed..
in high school my daily goal was to get smashed - fucked up - tanked - whatever.. and damnit i accomplished it with a smile. but i have responsibilities now and going to work with a hangover isn't very lovely when you have to deal with people all day. i don't drink to get drunk. there is no purpose. sure you have fun at the moment but i like to think of the after effects. i'll regret it in the morning and dear gawd it makes you fat! i like to think drinking is more for social events or hanging out. i drink cause i like the taste. no more of this getting wasted so i can't remember anything the next day or waking up puking and having to go to work feeling like shite. it's retarded and immature! i don't have to drink to be cool or fit in. if anyone else tell you different they ain't worth being around. plus i don't know how much my liver can take and i would like to live a long life.
it's all about taking care of yourself. loving yourself.. fuck everyone else! cause no one will take care of you if you don't care for yourself first.
i love me.. fuck the rest :)
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| ~the end~ |
[26 Jul 2006|08:40pm] |
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me - i get it now.. haha.. thats hilarious..
him - huh?
me - you are one funny guy.. heh.. hit and run..
him - what do you mean?
me - aparently i mean nothing.. and you can say you don't get it but it's cool.. sucks but i'll live :).. hit and run is a song.. you should hear it.. its good..
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~Hit And Run~ [The Horror Pops]
Hit and run by love
But broken less than I ask for
Just another crease, yeah
Another bump to pass by,
a bruise to heal
I've gotten the
"wouldn't you rather be friends?"
I guess that could make sense
If we hadn't kissed, yeah
If you hadn't made me feel like
I could never be missed
Let on by love and crushed by lust
Well, it's nothing to cry for, no
I'm not the first to be lied to
A tainted heart, rancid lust
but never felt I was sorry.
Everlasting love
Turned out to be nothing
Ha! It's rather bleak, yeah
But i've been sucker punched
one hell of a lot.
Let on by love and crushed by lust
Well, it's nothing to cry for, no
I'm not the first to be lied to
A tainted heart, rancid lust...
Let on by love and crushed by lust
Well, it's nothing to cry for, no
I'm not the first to be lied to
A tainted heart, rancid lust
but never felt I was sorry.
Let on by love and crushed by lust
Well, it's nothing to cry for, no
I'm not the first to be lied to
A tainted heart, rancid lust
but I never felt sorry for falling in love, yeah
A one night off and I wanted more
But I never said, never felt,
never said I was sorry.
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| Sick of Me.. |
[22 Jul 2006|07:40pm] |
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fuck.. i haven't been on this shite foreva..
i guess i had a life for a while..
anyways.. i just feel like ranting about nonsense..
blah blah blah.. geez i'm already bored of myself..
moving on..
well.. it's hot and i'm sticky.. and it's not nice.. and i'm going out tonight to some stupid party with jessica and her bf yair.. originally i was suppose to hang out with brian cause it was his birthday yesterday but he couldn't decide what the hell he wanted to do.. so.. maybe next time brian.. i'm going with jessica not to drink but cause i don't want to be home.. i don't like being home when it's hot.. and plus.. i have a lot on my mind.. and i rather be among friends than alone in my horribly hot room..
things about friends.. foes.. family.. work and school.. life.. and where i stand in it.. oh yeah.. and boys.. are on my mind constantly..
i'm going back to school for the millionth time.. i hope this time i'll stay.. it's art again.. but i think i have a goal now.. i didn't know what i was going towards but i realized graphic design is was seems to be echoing in the back of my mind.. so.. in about a year and a half i will have enough credits to transfer to cal state la and have my certificate for graphic design.. i'm actually excited i'm getting somewhere with my life and talent..
friends and foes are always an issue.. i miss tiffany.. its been over a year.. supposedly we made amends but it was indirect so it kinda meant nothing.. she still talks to my mom on a regular basis and that's kinda weird.. i don't know.. i hope one day we will be friends again..
i've been babysitting for the past three months.. but since i'm going back to school i wont be able to see little kasta anymore.. it makes me sad.. plus it'll be less money.. and i need money to go to school so i can make more money in the future.. gawd the system is so fucked up..
i still work in la on the weekends.. its been over a year since i started there and a few times i've come close to losing my spot.. but everything seems to be going good as of now.. we've worked out all the kinks.. and the store is moving along nicely.. and i've managed to keep a "social life" while still being responsible to getting to work with or with out a hangover.. mostly with out..
what's next..
oh.. that..
eeekk..
um.. where to begin..
i met him 3 weeks ago even though we have known each other a while.. the subject of actually hanging out was just delayed.. a few years.. so anyways.. i saw his band play in long beach.. and it was wonderful.. olivia went with me cause she was worry some of me going alone to meet a boy.. understandable.. so a pattern followed that i would see him the next sunday and the next following.. i've had a blast hanging out with him and his awesome friends and his rad sister.. he's a swell guy.. i'm just scared of getting attached cause i'm not the best at choosing the right guy for myself and usually get fucked over.. he doesn't seem to be that type but i don't know that for sure.. i know he has had bad relationships as well.. so i understand where he is coming from when he says he doesn't want anything serious.. "cause girls are mean to him".. well.. it only takes one person to fuck it up for the rest.. honestly.. i'm not the type to be "mean" or hurtful to anyone.. let alone the guy i'm starting to like.. i don't like drama! i don't like confrontation! i hate fighting! but it's not going to help much.. only time will tell if he sees i am not the same as the other gals he has been involved with.. i just want him to be happy.. i don't want to change him.. he's wonderful how he is.. and i enjoy spending time with him wheather we are at a show or just watching tv.. but like i said.. only time will tell.. and i hope.. gawd i hope i don't get myself hurt again either.. oh yeah.. i don't know if i'm going to see him tomorrow after work.. well see about that too..
so.. i think that concludes this update.. yeah.. i've shitted enough..
til next time..
fuck it easy :)
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[08 Mar 2006|08:36pm] |
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wow.. i had my ticket to the british invasion.. i was ready to go and everything.. they day of the show i just needed to wait to see what time my friend was picking me up.. well the adicts show i fucked up my ankle and i was in pain and the next day it wasn't feeling any better.. plus i had this gut feeling of not wanting to go to british invasion anymore.. something didn't feel right so i called up my friend and told her i wasn't going to go after all.. she ended up selling my ticket to another friend of ours and that was that.. i spent that day with jessica and it was all good.. limping around and such.. well around 11pm steve texted me to meet up at H's house cause everyone was there.. i told jessica but she thought he was lying.. i knew something must have happened for them to be back that early.. so we go and that's when i'm informed of the chaos that took place.. when i get home my mom tells me she saw it on the news.. i didn't know the gravity of it until the next day when i talked to adela and it make me upset just hearing about it.. then seeing the videos that were posted online make me feel ill.. but glad i wasn't there.. who knows what would have happened with my anxiety.. the only bands i wanted to see were The Adicts of which i was lucky to see them the night before at a show i wouldn't have experienced at british.. and Broken Bones who are playing at the Allen in a week or so.. so i'm set eh.. oh yeah and Vice Squad who wont be playing here til october i believe.. so yeah.. pretty crazy.. adela told me she also felt uneasy about going when she woke up too but decided to just go.. i usually follow my gut instinct.. most of the time i'm glad i did.
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| Get Adicted |
[04 Mar 2006|06:16pm] |
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well its been a while again since i updated this crap.
things have changed.. again..
i still work at my friend's store in highland park.. or where ever it is.
i was working for DDA [again] but that was just in january.
i've been hanging out with Adela and Jessica mostly.
Adela's kids are so adorable.
i've also been hanging out with her brother Steve as well.
in fact he just stopped by not too long ago with his daughter.
last night i went to a secret show at the Key Club to see The Adicts and it was a magical show.
most amazing show i've ever been to. they put on a great performance! Fucking Magical i tell you!
tonight i'm just going to go to a gig with Jessica cause we're still old school.
i was suppose to go to British Invasion today... had my ticket and everything but i had to sell it cause i fucked up my ankle at The Adicts show. oh well... i just wanted to see them and i saw them last night.. plus i would never experience what i did last night at the Invasion.. i also wanted to see Broken Bones but they are playing at the Allen in a few weeks and that should be better as well.
[i saw Toxic Narcotic there and it was fucking wicked!]
well kiddies i'm off to do something...or another..
cheerios motherfuckers.
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| Wake Up The House Is On Fire... |
[06 Dec 2005|11:52am] |
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hi-dee ho!
its been so so so long.
what the fuck happened?!
too much has happened...so much that i don't A. want to relive it all by jotting it all down, and B. don't remember everything :)
but i will inform those of recent events:
-i've been living alone now still in the garage since olivia moved out then moved back in and finally moved out once more last week.
-i work once a week [sundays] at a friend's vintage furniture store in los angeles called Revival
-i've been seeing a guy named jorden for the past two months. been hanging out with him two, three, four times a week. hang out with his friends as well. [olivia and jorden's friend kevin have been getting along well wink wink] we four went to the santa monica pier and drank on the beach last night :)
-i've been hanging out with jessica bollinger on a regular basis. we drink 40s and cheap wine in plastic fancy glasses. we still go to backyard gigs and try to make it to the clubs in time to get in for free.
-i've gotten back in touch with adela and her gremlins are so big since the last time i saw her way back when.
so that's pretty much the lot of it. nothing too fancy but i've never been so happy.
cheerios!
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| no fucking surprises here |
[15 Mar 2005|02:00pm] |
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well.. like always nothing planned follows throu.
the fuckers who were passing down the place in paramount backed out so we're fucked into having to stay at thumbelina until we find a place.
heh..
what else has gone wrong..
hold on i forgot..
oh yeah.. my phone is currently out of service. they [sprint] is attempting to fuck me over. they're charging me for what shouldn't cost anything...[i.e. 2dollars to check my voicemail.. now thats bullshite.]
so i'm going to call the shitty customer service they have and pitch a bitch.
on a lighter note...
mr. brain has informed me about a movie coming out staring billie joe armstrong :: drools :: called Live Freaky! Die Freaky! [.com]. its chop full of other members of well know punk bands. he explained its a bit gorey and maybe x-rated. along with claymation. my kinda movie! hopefully we get to go to the premiere on march 31st.
im so excited!
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| In Current Events... |
[11 Mar 2005|09:04am] |
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[orinially... i wrote this crap yesturday]
well well well
so much has happened.. ah and i wont bother typing it all out cause im too damn lazy and its in the past already..
think of the future.
well my future is moving.. yeah moving to paramount.
with olivia and alex [bwhahaha.. he hates being called that]
im glad we're not moving to claremont as we thought cause thats too damn far from everyone and thats no good.
at least im close to norwalk so i can hang out with a few pepole like brian and kcir.
i wont be online as much. not that im on all the time..
just aim on ma cell.. like usual.
so if you knows me well IM me as you wish.
snff.. my only option to the outside world.
[ftw]
ok, well im gonna get back to packing.
geez.. didnt i just unpack a month ago?
hopefully i have enough sense left in me to not drink to night as i have been since saturday. i like my liver and i hope it sticks around so when im 80 years old i can still booze it up like the young laddies and lassies.
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| Lemme Tell YOU! |
[20 Feb 2005|06:07pm] |
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Rain Rain Go Away! |
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well..
i went to the party kaveh told me about in azusa..
and what an adventure that led olivia and i into..
i wasnt sure i was even going because first olivia said she was going to be staying at her mothers lastnight and i really didnt want to go alone...
but then she didnt stay at her moms so i had a traveling buddy..
as i was attempting to get a ride she fell asleep so to make things already starting off bad we left thumbelina [home sweet home] at 8pm.
the info that mta.net told me.. well.. we had already missed the bus that went directly there..
but of course we said [fuck it] and continued out the mission..
[76 to el monte station... 480 to citrus and workman...]
we kind of figured out the way to get there was we went along..
but as we got off the 480 it seemed to look like we were in a pickle.
there was no bus to go were we needed...
after talking to brian and considering our [minimal] options...
we started to walk.
and a walk it was.
citrus and workman to citrus and gladstone...
[we then had to go to the local pizza place to find out which way to walk next.. their map had disappointing news for us]
we were already soaking wet but it wasnt too cold in my mini skirt and fishnetts...
at one point it decided i didnt give a shite and started to play in the damn puddles i tried avoiding earlier.
we finally got to the fucking place around 11pm.. i think..
i dont even remember..
i was going crazy now..
but it was a treat the we didnt have to pay... for anything.
i spotted kaveh in the corner at the DJ set up and headed over to say "hello".
it was more like a quick 'hi' and wave... and then a hug.
alcohol was introduced and we wasted no time getting friendly with the booze. mmm.. captain morgan and coke and vodka and sprite and some bacardi something..
well it sure made us forget all the shite we went through to get there.
i really didnt dance much.. he got pulled in by some drunk gal and he pulled me in after.. but eh. i really wasnt in a dancing kinda mood..
some guys was trying to dance with me and i was not having any of that.
but then some chick was begging me and olivia was already in there so i gave in.
and then i gave up moments later and stood back where i claimed to be my spot all night.
it ended when some drunken fool was trying to get in the the paneling of the garage and in the process knocking over some speakers.
last song was called and it was over.
while olivia and i pondered how we were going to get home, more drunken fools tried sparking up conversation with us..
[heh.. some guy said he saw me standing in the corner but he didnt talk to me cause he thought kaveh was my boyfriend.. i remember him asking me twice if i was a friend of "the DJ" and i assured him he was indeed a friend of mine]
anyways.. our umbrella was stolen [or missplaced] so it made staying dry very difficult..
but olivia and i started walking to find a place to sit until the buses started running again [at 7am]since we really had no choice.. it was barely turning 4am.
we sat at 711 on azusa for a while.. maybe about an hour.. until some guy offered us a ride home.. we didnt give a shite and were freezing our asses off so we took it.
he seemed ok at first but then started talking about how he just tweaked and got spun and all.. and he also tried testing the waters with olivia.. but i snapped him back in his place.
he dropped us off at colorado and rosemead and we began to walk once more.
we walked trough broken sidewalks.. avoiding the swamps and rivers the rain make in the ground.. we walked down red brick roads and little paths between over grown grass.
we got to las tunas around 6am.
and waited and waited and waited for the 266 that would take us to valley.
the bus was late and we were pissed and cold and wet and tired and not giving a fuck if someone killed us right then and there.
but we got home.. i mean thumbelina around 8am.
fuck it... i just knocked out and woke up at 5pm.
its raining again and we were suppose to visit brian but hot damn i dont really want to go out again in this weather.
well that was my saturday event. and it was truly a night to remember.
[i have to say...
olivia and i are honestly the only real fucking punks these days eh]
thank you very much.
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holy mother fucking shite
ok i was working for some company called DDA [directory distributing associates] and they're contracted with sbc so distribute the yellow pages. i worked at the office in commerce for about 2 weeks. my job was to call people in the downey-midcities whittier area and make sure they received they're new yellow pages. boring job but kickback.[people smoking out in the back room and passing out beer] anyways.. olivia got me the job but she was leaving to escondido a few days after i started working cause they were opening an office down there. so i finished out the office in commerce. [the company..for some reason... changes locations every month]but i as having many troubles at home and fighting with mother and all.. and i was ready to take off.. so i talked ot the boss and i was going to transfer to the escondido warehouse. well shite never works out as planned.. i was told that they over hired so i was sent to the office in irvine.. but it was difficult with travel and all and olivia and i needed eachothers help. so i went to escondido and stayed there for a while. she worked and i lived off my last checks that were pretty decent with my overtime. again.. shite never goes as planned and problems arose and i ended up back home and taking olivia with me.
it was hard cause my mom and i were not speaking to each other. and since my mother treated miss tiff as daughter.. more than me.. she was on her side about the whole drama between olivia and tiff.. [i wont even get into that shite].. anyways.. olivia is here. tif is i dont know where. im not talking to her or kevin. i rather not be friends with people who knowing leave friend in need behind, backstab and are superficial hypocrites. i dont need people like that to be friends of mine. so loosing them isnt really a concern to me. i found a piece of myself in escondido..
[SELF WORTH]...
i dont take shite from people as i would before. ive become aware of crap i was taking.. stupid shite i should have been obvious to see. thus bring me to mr.E. when i was away he'd call and what not...but when i came back i noticed a lot.. and with the help of my other half [olive martini] i ended it. im not sad at all.. just mad at myself for letting it go on like it was or 3 months. 3 months wasted with the wrong person. i havent really been concerned on who that time should have been givin to [a name will go unsaid]. ok.. ok.. i wont even get started on that..
CHANGING THE SUBJECT!
school.
im going to school at the moment. still elac but im doing online classes. math and philosophy. i havent done much yet cause it just startefd and i havent gotten my books. and apparently i cant do anything until i get them.
[shite!]
job.
olivia is working at the hospital. bringin the cheese to thumbelina [my garage.. our home]. im looking for a job. i dont know where though. i have a lot of time since school is online and only take 3 hours a week of my time. oh my.. the search continues.
[tori is a bitch.. i fucking hate her... but only when she leaves]
so yeah thats been my life since the new year.. and its only february... holy shite! wait. shite isnt holy. .im going to church this saturday.. [oh my .. me? church? on a saturday?] SDA.. seventh day advisant... *sigh* im not a religions person [per say] but i do have MY beliefs and morals.
i got my braces off!!!! yeah i feel weird still. i get my retainer this sunday. its been 4 years since they first went on. damn... i feel like i smile more.. but heh.. i dunno.. im not used to not having them yet.
today i dont know what olivia and i have planned... she doesnt work today or tomorrow.. but its raining and bartholomew is still broken.. [but paid for] pinTo piraTe might come over.. or we might go see Roo. i dont know yet.. i have to go talk to miss Garbanzo Root.
i wrote so much this past month or so. i ned a new journal. all i do is write and write and write. about my life.. thoughts.. all repetitive and confusing.. rants and questions.. that will go unanswered.. some i know that answer but wont accept it.. ahh.. see.. there i go with my confusing way with words.
[STOP]
[GO]
alrighty then.. im hungry.. all we seem to have that i eat is string cheese.. hot cheetos.. and orange vodka.. mm its good with sunkist sodie-pop.
ok im off to figure out what im doing today/this afternoon. how the life i live day by day.. a mystery each day of what plans with go through and what wil not.. plans never seem to stay as they are.. yet knowing this wy dont we have emergency back up plans..??? who knows..
[im too stoned for this]
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| Have you heard Miss Olivia's philosophy on Bobby Pins? |
[01 Jan 2005|02:23pm] |
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well its a new fucking yeah eh.. hope its better then the last. most plans i had for lastnight went the the shites. i ended up going to norm's with miss olivia and brian. it was nice. but the service sucked ass so we left no tip. to even have a bit of flavor in the fettuccini olivia and i shared we added a lot of salt and ketchup.. the parmesan cheese was stale. never eating there again. today i hope to see mr.E. he's been sick but feeling better today. :). tuesday im probably going to go get some piercing needles so i can get started on that again. ok.. im off.
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| New Ink |
[29 Dec 2004|10:22am] |
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my friend came a few days ago and worked on my arm for 3 hours on this piece. going to do my whole left arm "japanese horor". im so excited cause it has been a while snce i was tattooed last. didnt hurt much. on my right arm im getting more traditional horror style tattoos. lots of color.. webs.. bats..skulls.. hearts.. "psycho" shite. cant wait! :)
i started a painting lastnight. not finished. its going to be pretty nice i think. i didnt sleep. i was just up... painting.. my mind going 100 miles an hour. but still bored. bah.. i need more hobbies. or friends.. heh.
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| ...Got and Itch for a Bitch and a Mouth Full of Shit so Fuck It... |
[27 Dec 2004|11:37am] |
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[^i'll give you a dollar if you can tell me where that line is from ^]
this morning.. around 5am.. i woke up fucking itching like a bitch. this has been going on for far too long. and i had no explanation for it. i had no idea why i wake up at 5am or around that time itching the fuck out of my arms, legs, back, stomach, neck, face, head.. thought.. "maybe i have fleas". when krystle saw how bad i was getting she started to get itchy. i finally went online to like 3 different medical sites trying to find out what the fuck was wrong with me.
my mind was at ease when i discovered i did not have fleas.
i had "Seborroeic Dermatitis". brought on by emotional stress. so stress made me itch uncontrollably. how mean.
when i last dyed my hair i had an allergic reaction to an ingredient called "PPD" that is commonly found in L'oreal's products such as 'nice n' easy'. this was the dye i had used. the irritation lasted 3 day. a horrible hell i dare not put on myself again. so being so upset from the allergic reaction... when my scalp healed the itching worked its way all over my body. krystle's mom figured it was stress from the beginning. and it was. now the itching has subsided. thank you cortizone 10. glad i don't have fleas or any other disturbing skin problem. just stress. damn stress. i need to relax.. like what frankie said.
today i might get some work done on my arm by a friend once lost and now found. if not then i hope to see Mr.E when hes done running around pasadena doing errands.
the Groovy Ghoulies are playing and brian has informed me of this information. he must inform me with more so that i know in fact i can be able to attend this show i so hope to attend. if not... don't fret... i have a secret agent lover man :)
now i am off to annoy little miss kc. she refuses to get her lazy ass up. i need not to be alone. entertain me. feed me. pay attention to me. don't tell me to stop jumping on the bed.
AWAKE YOUR LAZY SELF!
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got back a bit ago. tiff dropped me off at eric's lastnight. he and i rented dodgeball and i, robot. we went to sleep early. today we went to see darkness in alhambra. it was ok... better than i thoughrt it would be but eh. we drove around forever .. or what seemed to be forever.. looking for some place to eat that was open. finally we found el torito.. or whatever its called. i really didnt want to go home but i knew i had to make my mom happy by being home at least for a while. so now im home. mr.E got me a watch cause he said i never know what time it is.... which is very true. ahh.. how i wish i could return to my mr.E! central heat and air ♥ ... anyways.. im off to watch reno 911.. the first complete season.. from my brother.. how nice of him to remember i liked that show. ciao
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im home.. waiting for tiff to come from work. going to see mr.E later today. spending the weekend with him. mom wasnt too happy 'bout that.."christmas should be spent with family" blah i say.. if it wasnt for her i would even celebrate the holiday. anyways ive been waking up at the buttcrack of dawn [4:44am]itching all over. krystle's mom said its stress. it sucks cause it wont stop. even if i take someting for allergies and shite it wont stop. driving me crazy!!! havent been out much. kevin's car ~DIEGO~ finally died. hes getting new wheels jan. 10th. on jan. 30th i finally get these damn braces off!! YES! in a few weeks im suppose to get soe tattoos done by the infamous frankola. just figuring out what i want done and such. well i must be off to get ready to leave. i dont kow when mr.E is going ot comeget me but im by no mean ready to leave the house. my phone bill finally went down to normal. it was all up in the hundreds when it should be 60 on a regular basis. ack.. and i need a new charger. miss tiff broke mine cause she was too stoned to realize it didnt work on her phone. she gave me hers when she bought a car charger but now thats broken she took hers back. so im stuck with a bugging my sister to use her charger or a dead phone. hell i dont have 30 fazoos to get another one. any donations? heh. anyways... a shower is in order for this kid.
bahumbug to all you christmas cheerful asses!
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lastnight i was suppose to go to Bang! with miss olivia but like always nothing goes as planned. we drive to hollywood and decide in the 711 parking lot we rahter get drunk. so we do. and it was fun. havent drank in a while.. well..no..thats a lie..ok nevermind. anyways... i had an ortho appointment at 3pm so olivia and i head to union staion. we then part out ways for she was going to her moms and i had to get to san gabriel veddy soon. i got the grreatest news from the dentist: my next appointment[jan 30th]these damn shites come off! about damn time. so i got verry happy. i cut my hair. not as short as i actually intended but i likes it good. tiff called and said she was on her way over and i told her about my hair. when she found out who cut it she made a stupid sound. ["ehhh"] when she came it she didnt even look at me. i asked what was wrong and she said she didnt want to look at my hair. so i say "so you're not going to look at me cause she cut my hair?"... and she said YEAH! fucking childish. and i told her it was childish.. she said "its more like stubborn".. smartass... what it is shes being.. its uncalled for. i hate immaturity. ugh! i wanna yell. fuck it. i dont bother with peoples lame antics no matter who they are. im not going to walk around with my hod on to please her. fucking deal with it and grow the fuck up now!
:: Sudden Subject Change ::
i hope to see mr.E today. he is waiting for his car back from the shop. got his breaks fixed or something along those lines. i just dont want him to be drive me home late again. falin asleep drivin.. i wont have it!
maybe you'll have it. who knows.
i'm hungry.
[fuck spell check]
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things have been up and down these few weeks. spending a lot of time with kevino. we even had a fight...kinda. but we made up the same day. hes like my husband sometimes...a tall, white, very gay husband. but you gotta love him. i was suppose to spend time with kc but then shite happens and things get postponed until further notice.
hung out at union station last night with miss olivia. tonight we're going to bang with her brother and his girlfriend. spending the night at "zoei". sneaky sneaky. i hope jealousy doesnt peak its way into my outings. ahem.
::MOVING ON::
i played match maker with my two good friends. they really deserve each other. hope it doesnt turn sour. eek. awkward for me i'd say.
i miss mr.E. last i saw him was.. lemme see..whatever the day the O.C. is on. he's all into that show. it was more interesting than i thought. but i have yet to see him since then. he's most likey attempting to fix his vespa. one of two. ::good luck hun::
its now time for me to wash this black..oh excuse me.. blue black hair dye out. later on its chop chop for these locks. about damn time for a change.
tattoos are in order. probably in two weeks or so. get the shite i have snazed up and maybe start new shite on my oh so blank left arm. japanese has my thoughts. japanese pin up perhaps. ooo im getting so excited. cant wait to feel the needle in my skin again. its been far to long. oh how i miss thee.
:: The Horror Pops - Baby Lou Tattoo.. reminds Tiffany of me :) ::
ok ok..enough rambling. im off.. like whoa. scratch that...yeah.. ok
ciao.
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Last night i went to see Death By Stereo with Ginger! There were like 5 bands ahead of them. Some were ok and some sucked ass. A San Gabriel band [After Silence] played. I saw them the last time Death By Stereo played. I had a great time and so did Ginger. I saw Noa there... eh. Anyways.. this week has gone by pretty fast. Hope I see Mr.E this weekend. ciao ♥
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